Her name is Noel-
I have a dream about her.
She rings my bell-
I got gym class in half an hour.

And oh how she rocks-
In Keds and tube socks.
But she doesn't know who I am-
And she doesn't give a damn--about me.

Cause I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby.
Yeah I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby.
Listen to Iron Maiden baby--with me

Her boyfriend's a dick
He brings a gun to school
And he'd simply kick
my ass if he knew the truth

He lives on my block
He drives an IROC
But he doesn't know who I am
And he doesn't give a damn about me.

Oh yeah--dirtbag
No, she doesn't know what she's missing.
Oh yeah--dirtbag
No, she doesn't know what she's missing.

Man I feel like mould-
It's prom night and I am lonely.
Low and behold-
She's walking over to me.

This must be fake-
My lip starts to shake.
How does she know who I am?
And why does she give a damn about

"I've got two tickets
to Iron Maiden baby.
Come with me Friday-
don't say maybe.

I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby
like you

went crystal jade for lunch with tings! totally unexpected .. we were pondering for such a LONG time about where we shall eat! got my cosmogirl .. i swear its losing its appeal ever since they changed editors. think im gonna stick to u.s. elle and cleo. boring the hell out of me. anyway yadayadayada .. her driver drove me to the clinic where my mum was waiting .. thanks! saw the doctor .. blahblahblah. im feeling so monotonous. anyhow.

madness la the differentiation test. memorised the cone formula wrongly .. affected the last question too .. lost 15 marks .. bound to fail. stupid shit man. sigh. shall not indulge in self pity.

eyes were red again .. yes .. news flash. haha. but now its sorta .. on its way back to being normal cos i went to see the doctor haha. yea its unbelievably true .. i went to see the doctor 3 times over my eyes .. but they were REALLY bad .. you can see it for yourself in school. the red veins were popping out of the surface. yea damn gross but i really grew accustomed to this sight after constant and what seems like perpetual examination of it every singly day ._.
found out its due to allergy of these pimple tablets that ive been taking. am so prone to allergy .. my mum tells me i should only go to the same doctor cos he has all my records. i dont even know what im allergic to! oh yea and the doctor and nurses were gaily laughing over my recent allergy when my eyeballs rolled to the ceiling .. not funny k :(( that was totally memorable! i bet it'll be like, one of those things stuck in my memory even when i hit my head hard and suffer from loss of memory. cos my eyes could not roll down and about .. and i couldnt even sleep the entire night cos my eyes couldnt shut at all ._. i know! it was tragic. so i lay there in bed, eyes rolled to the heavens, yawning wearily for the next few hours that seemed like a lifetime. so .. how can they be laughing at me.

oh! we presented our frog+chicken story today .. haha. the 2 most self-delusional people we've ever came across. but the rest of the class were perplexed, including ms jacob so they were all like huh. whatever. while xin and wai were laughing themselves silly up there.

tings gave me this anna sui rouge lip thing! am obsessed with applying it now .. haha it has this rose+bundung (however you spell it..you know the pink drink?) smell! haha and ree+nana gave me this bits and pieces thingy. its sorta like a metal book with 3 pages .. and it contains each of our pics on the page with our names engraved on the page facing the pic .. and my pic sucked so terribly .. as usual. but just to please ree, IT WAS REALLY PRETTY. hahas but yea if i didnt spoil it, it was REALLY sweet. aww :)) love you guys. so yea. thats me, recieving my bday presents in march when its in december! hahas but better late than never huh ;))

okay nuff crapping .. i gotta go have my dinner and pack my lit+geog files (after so long! oh and i dont even know the colours of the file..and i need to dig up the worksheets and all..ugh. the thought of the trauma.) AND watch american idol AND note down the snide remarks from the mouth of simon cowell for english. rolls eyes.

all of a sudden

it doesnt matter if youre pretty or ugly
cos even if youre pretty,
people (like me) will not be able to decided to hate / like you.
cos even if youre ugly,
someone else will think youre not.
or rather,
there's always someone uglier.

and that, is a bad attempt to cheer myself up.
cos it didnt.

okay. ignore my crap. i SHALL GO STUDY NOWNOWNOW.

b a c k.
tired .. was fun though. we missed out so much on each other's lives. but the 2 stupid girls are still the same. within the 48hrs (or so) we saw each other get pissed off .. happy .. scream ourselves crazy (totally) .. laugh .. complain .. happy .. being spastic and everything else. was like when we were in sec2 :) the room was so small but we kept falling asleep unknowingly .. and the loo was freaky .. at least to me hahas. kept demanding that they accompany me there to pee or brush my teeth. and we didnt bathe for like 2 whole days ._. the wonders of perfume.
recount!

day1 .. went to nana's house in the aftnn and that stupid girl havent even packed yet .. i helped her to clear her bed and stuff her clothes and everything into this tiny converse duffel (which the ungrateful brat not only didnt thank me but complain endlessly about how crumped her clothes would be .. blahblahblah) went online and she showed me stuff .. were watching this VERY lame but funny snips. hahas. anyhow. when her mum came back she drove us to the chalet and we moved the food and everything into the unit .. blahblah. that place is FLOODED with golden hair ah bengs and their equally golden haired ah lian gfs and muds (however you spell it) we were like, out of place. left for town .. met ree and her tys and tys' friends .. who were SO annoying but i shall not further comment. eyes were hell red and irritating the hell outta me. and stomach was grumbling. were sitting at the bench outside crystal jade fooling around and this lil girl asked me about her eyes .. her vocab is really wow. shes only like how old i dont remember but she looks like shes 6 or smth. anyhow. she asked why were my eye whites at the side BLOODSHOT and was it because my blood vessels burst? smart lil ass. but no. my itchy dusty fingers .. infection .. blah. anyway. shes so cute! sucha sweetie pie :) yes she actually knows the word bloodshot (okay i helped her pronounced it she was like bloodshhh..shh..obv she wanted to say bloodshot right?) yea i didnt even know such words existed when i was 6. whatever. anyway. finally our number came popping on the plate so we went in .. had dinner .. wasnt hungry by then but still ate anyhow. nanas recommendation was er .. quite GOOD. hahas but that wasnt the point. appetite was ruined. was moody. but after awhile dark clouds cleared .. walked around taka to find a vacant loo .. took so much time that we missed the 930 show for the eye 2 .. was sold out. bought the 1135 one .. oh yea before that ree was marching around announcing to the world that she needed to buy paper panties .. and that girl just could not stop repeating it over and over again on our way to watsons ._. (yea and nana didnt need to keep announce to the world that her -censored- itches. and i didnt need to repeat numerously that i needed to change my underwear cos the thought of not bathing grosses me out .. see how we DONT irritate each other?) anw. went to heerens took ugly neos (whats new..) BUMMED+CHILLED around (just to annoy nana hahas) was watching PUNKD! on the screen till the stupid man came and switched the damn tv off .. but he was quite nice about it haha anw. ree took with her tys then we went cine .. which was flooded with those lame posers etc etc as usual .. and we walked around .. and just to please ree we went to that ice crm shop cos she was SCREAMING AND SCREECHING (literally) away about how she wanted to eat EES CLEAM (ice cream), delighted to please her and then she says I DONT WANT ANYMORE .. hahas. went to the arcade and played air hockey :D me+nana won ree and her tys!! hahas. fingers hurt from the flying blocks. but was funn! caught the movie and michelle+karina called me .. time for surprise :D :D hahas H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y sabrina wee yue wen they got her a cake at like the middle of the night .. or rather at the break of the morning .. 12am they rushed to town and bought tickets for some show just to enter the cinemas hallway and surprise na :) how sweet right! hahas was plotting along them. needless to say was msging non stop and nana was thinking that i have some new sweetheart that i wasnt telling her -rolls eyes- love you, bitch. though you irritate me with your constant 'want to see my boobs?' or 'want to see my -censored- ?' sweet 16!! :)) anyway. we sang her a bday song and the authorities came and chased michelle+karina away cos 'if the manager comes we'll die .. blahblah' and they left. we went back to the show .. which was really lame but qt shocking with the effects. but the storyline was quite dumb .. the first one was WAYY better. walked ree's bf to swensons (yes that rich kid works) and we settled down inside cos of my craving for icecrm .. ordered this firehouse birthday thing and sang a bdy song for nana when it came .. she was like rolling her eyes hahas. yummy yum .. didnt foot the bill cos there wasnt a need to .. dont understand why but ITS FREE! hahas shoulda gotten my crayfish pasta, ree says. hahas was craving for it too when this malay ordered it and the aroma was all around us .. anyhow. left the swensons house cabbed back to the chalet .. wee hours of the morning we washed up lay around in bed and talked .. ree was fawning over the neos she and her 'baby darling' took all the time but yes. unknowningly fell asleep woke up at around 9 (what happened to sunrise viewing??)

day 2 had a hard time pulling ree outta bed .. were screaming and howling at each other .. then nana was pulling the covers and i had no idea how but at the end of it all i was buried under THIS whole pile and we had another laughing fit .. continued to get ree outta bed .. needed to PRETEND to be her baby darling and alow her to fawn over the neos agn .. after an hour or so took a 15mins walk to macs .. needless to say .. we grumbling and complaining all the way there .. was wearing nana's HORRID+DISGUSTING shoes cos i cldnt possibly wear my click-clock charles and keiths flats with my outfit and the sand and gravel were inviting themselves into the shoes .. bumping along as i walked .. feet ached ._. had macs breakfast ! nana showed we another way of eating fries .. yummy yum. horribly unhealthy tho. haha. walked back at the beach .. needless to say .. journey back was happier hahas. the people around would affect any moody living person anyhow. everyone happily blading / cycling / swimming / strolling / jogging / just hanging around. palpable atmosphere. reached the chalet and unknowingly we lapsed on the bed and fell asleep .. again. haha. till nana hovered over me, pondering if she should wake me up to solve her money woes hahaha funny girl. fumbled around for the money till she came back and we started talking 'so loudly that it woke me up' according to ree. had a hard time getting her out of bed .. that lazy bum. all she wants to do is lol around the bed. lackadaisical attitude! in the midst of that we both joined her in the lolling around in the end hahas. finally got our arses off the bed and rented a double bike (ree cannot cycle) and rollerblades. na+i forgot how to cycle haha and tried so hard to get back our skills .. obv we looked damn spas falling here and there and all over the place as well in the process .. but we managed to! haha cycled around and thats why my knees ache like shit now. lost nana and cos our bike was due time we returned the bike and went back to our unit and then a very pissed off nana appears .. gulp. heh. in the end she calmed down and we ate our innovative just ICE cubes hahas. yea ree stayed in the room while i got on the blades and attempted to blade back to the shop to return the blades at the other end of the beach .. cant go uphill and scale stairs .. and neither can i go over humps .. or balance myself properly very well at all. hahas was grabbing nana at all the wrong places and at the wrong time so it was a nightmare. hahas. BUT! it was better than the other time i bladed with steph and nai alr ok! way better. hahas. yeayea fell down and i was so embarassed. went back to the shop to return and the ah beng brought a chair for me and i plopped on it SO hard my butt ached .. and is still aching now. took off the blades (whoops. didnt bring shoes to change into ..)and he gave me tissue and plasters .. he didnt laugh at me .. oh joy. hahas. but nana did though. enjoying herself telling the guests for her bbq later that night. asked if i wanted to wash the bloody knee but we didnt hear and nana act strong piggybacked me outta the shop and whoops. forgot to take back ree's ezlink card. and the ah beng was saying that we're so evil .. ps our friend's card .. whatever. but he was quite nice though. okay he's not an ah beng haha. and that nana continue to act strong, piggyback me till halfway she couldnt take it .. or rather. i was making noise and i kept slipping down anyway. OKAY YES NANA YOU ARE VERY STRONG -nods- she really is. walked back in her socks hahas. looked like a freak in white socks la. eh now that i think of it. where did i leave her socks after wearing it? when i took it off it was so black i thought there were black prints initially haha. after that .. her classmates came (just HAD to come when i was changing into my NEW :D roxy skirt haha ._.) watched tv till her guests starting streaming in .. and i was fussing over my red eyes and ree, over her -censored- on her neck .. events were in a blur dont remember but yea were carrying this and that outta the unit to start the bbq .. talked with this person and that person and when we finally got to eat, the fumes were irritating THE HELL out of my eyes and pissing me off cos it was damn uncomfortable and got moody .. sat there stoning while qiaoying and nai were blabbering away .. ree was facing a crisis and we took a cab and left .. stupid cab driver was damn rude when he himself didnt even know whr serangoon was .. like is he dumb or stupid. reached home at around 9+ mum gave me this VERY cute puny lil pear haha. bathed (oh joy.) ate the pear and plopped onto bed.

long entry! spent like an hour typing this shit.

the hols are ending in like 10hours .. didnt do much. time seems to be zooming before my eyes. busy all the time .. doing nothing! grr. shall go off to do the math hmwk and study 2B shou ce .. sigh.

'ciaos.

yayy ree can go :D :D YAYY! -jumps ard!
hahas. we're all superbly hyped up -grins.
cannot wait!
hees.

waiting for my songs to be done downloading and i shall leave the house.
gonna see my bitch! and purple princess hoho.
i know i sound spastic.

at was over at our place again.
looks damn corny, his hair.
my dearr sister is having lunch with him and sending him to school .. i think she'd make a good mama, dontcha think? hahas. shes gonna kill me. anyhow. we were watching disc2 of blue crush cos it was screwed ystd when at came ringing the bell.
anyhow. id be gone for 2days and a night (hopefully 2 nights, actually -winks at nana-) and that gives my sister freedom to take my clothes .. oh whatever. am not gonna be bothered this time :))

beyonce knowles is hothothot. but her mtvs are damn lame. just about her and other girls shaking their asses till they look like they're detached from their bodies .. or her in the rain her clothes clinging to her body. er. whats new. but i guess thats what sells.

got a pitas page! but too lazy to change layout and all. probably activate it during the next hols .. but i like my dollhouse! dilemma. hahas.

oh my. was watching this theatre thingy for the linkin park from the inside song .. and it was SO pretty! hahas. its black and patches of purple with stars shimmering!! okay shall stop this. hahas. real pretty.

yea im bringing my shou ce there to mug.

my nose feels extremely absurdly tired .. from holding my specs up ?!
no idea why but yes.
my sis just plaited my hair and its all around the place now.
completed 3 of the math pprs
i still feel like i cant do it
cos im always doubtful at one point of another
maybe i shall do another tomms at nana's chalet haha
i can imagine nana staring at me eyes lit with utmost disbelief
cannot wait for our sleepover :)
hopefully ree's parents are cool with it
and that my mum wont change her mind ._.
dad gave me 40bucks today out of the blue

which reminds me of my shopping ystd
feeling really guilty ._.
got a bag from topshop lotsa stuff from ikea (oh the meatballs totally rock balls :) true to da's words hahas.) a mango spag and i saw another few items .. one of those MUST BUYS that i cant just brush them out of my mind .. roxy skirt mambo bag another mango spag roxy bikini .. hoho.

eew! the remix for cry me a river sucks. totally.

needa study chinese 2b + chem electrolysis ._.
haha i made my sis cook .. tom yam for me
shes sucha sweetie shes actually doing it
shes like folding 512 hearts for at.
claiming that 512 means i love you
though we both dont understand why it proves so
and i doubt at actually is aware of that either.
but whatever
shes so free anyway.

i keep feeling like im not studying enough.
which is true.
frigging Os.
i really need to buck up by 6 L1R5 points by next term.
okay shall stop blogging my crappy thoughts.
but yea this just about wraps up my train of thoughts at the moment ..

okay off i go !! tom yam :))
im so evil i know.

mirrored reflections.
about your .. deeds.

what a word to describe.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
Hold of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind giving you
Someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
I don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

yellow is my favourite song next to this i promise you :) it is so good -nods at best brand-
hahas

trying in vain to study
:(
i need some serious motivation.
this is bad. very bad.

was at da's place ystd
watched blue crush (it was hell good :) i love kate bosworth .. her eyes are so cool! though the kwoks thought it was freaky haha. one green/blue and gray eye! how cool is that?) attempted to imitate those surf babes in the show by er learning to step on a skateboard and like, slide across the room? hahas. needless to say, we failed miserably to satisfy ourselves. but yes. bought the new veet spray on your legs and tadah they disappear when you wash them thingy and meddled with it .. attempted to decorate her room but its all weird hahas. well i decorated mine! its just a lil part at both bedroom and study room .. bedroom was like a collage stuck in the middle of a huge ashton and my favourite ralphlauren girl complete with neoprints and those gorgeous stars i love haha. it makes me happy just looking at it. okay i think i sound like a freak but yea. new fetish :)

im down for serious mugging on thursday. and sunday too.
to kill all traces of guilt lingering.
hahas.

math, chem and chinese here i come ._.

meanwhile. ikea with da tomms! and still looking forward to fri+sat :)) oh so patiently .. hahas.
i havent been hanging out with my girls for a looong time.
i feel .. foreign just looking at them in school.
oh yea. not towning with steph+sq during the hols. how majorly DEPRESSING is this fucking shite. everybodys busy. i hatehatehate sec4. its everything i hope things would not turn out to be. hopefully next saturday would do fine. and i NEED to go to stjohnnie. before i falter below the 75% requirement and kill myself.

lazy to sign gbks. shall leave a note here .. hopefully people ll see this!

' f r e d a you neh neh poo la you. i was wondering what nice note did you leave me! hello hello! s back. ahahs. GROUPIES?! what the hell are you talking abt you funny girl. we cant sing (we like, croak) we cant surf. we do the basicAL basics of skating. we cant even do heelies (but i dont wanna do heelies! so childish!) groupies on what man .. tsk. but yes duncan is so damnit cute. oh remind me to show you my wallet tomms :D :D haha you guys are the kwoks arent you??

' n a n a n a you lameass you! so doreen how? btw YOU are the flying mosquito lo -watches it zzzzzz around-

' alumina (lol) fine since you insist, ALUMINA. you are part of the molten aluminium and youre happy with that?? -shakes head- but yea it was fun that day :) you lucky girl. can watch nc16 shows alr. LEGALLY, i mean

' stephsteph signed your gbk, babe. in case you dont check as usual ..

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn x2 the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

jinxed

okay guess it wont be one of the last entries of the year -points below- haha was playing sims! :D got really bored after a while though. parents are out .. eating this otah that my sis bought out of pity for the seller downstairs. its quite nice actually. haha my left eye is itchy again! fuck. i hope it wont turn all red and splotchy again :(

L1R5 was horrid. though it lessened by 6 since last year's. my best brand is absolutely one of the potential 6-pointers in my class -glares at her enviously- only failed math this time .. english + lit was like SPLENDID la. ive never gotten below 68 in my entire life but !! it happens. -sulks- both sciences got pulled down by the freakin retest .. im so bloody pissed cos i finally managed to get b3 for them but it wasnt shown, obviously. and humanities .. GRR. coulda gotten an A b u t just had to fail the stupid SS assignment. which is uncanny cos ive never failed SS in my entire life.

so thts my PPR.
horrendous and confusing cos what i did better is worse and what i did worse is better. im like uttering rubbish.
:((
need to get out of this peril.
dont even know what im good at anymore. like huh.

one of the times when i feel like a walking disaster and nothing ever goes the way i want them to be.

okay ignore me.
blabbering to myself.

anyhow. was out w the sixers, tings, mina, dinah and da. da and dinah left to change so the rest of us went marche to eat .. was qt fun :) bitched in the train and all the way to marche. after eating dinah and da came to join us .. and we took horrid neos but was damn funn. laughing and screaming away cos it was so damn cramped and all of us kept trying to dart into the camera in time .. going up and down like spastic kids. hahas. sixers+tings left after that and mina and i waited for dinah+da to eat at yoshinoya .. was helping her to conceal her bruise and in the end she looked like she had grey eye shadow on or something -laughs- walked around. got my fave drink :D havent had it in ages. dont know why i ignored it for a while either. bought the lancome aroma source miniature! have the big one and helluva loved it since sec2 haha. yea and dinah went with me to kino to get girlfriend and ym .. and blah blah. oh! we were at zara and dinah was holding my THICK amath book for me and we saw some st nicks ppl and judging by the way they were gawking after us and whispering among themselves, it was kinda obvious that they thought we were together. like, hello. -laughs- FRIENDS. anyhow. saw this skirt that dinah claims to be "so wendy" whatever it means. it costs wayy beyond what it should be so nah.

the ban mian at compasspoint sucks.

my sister is SO BROWN.
she just tanned, which explains the skin, and she was in this brown roxy shirt (yea brown shirt??!) and this brown skirt thts quite nice. and she tied her hair with this rubberband with different shades of brown. and her hair is dyed slightly brownish red. and she just HAD to buy brown roxy slip ons AND wear them back. so you see. shes brown head to toe. maybe she'd go colour her teeth brown later. and buy brown nail polish and lip gloss. the weird unexplainable things elder sisters do.

cant wait for tuesday :)
and firday!!
okay its like 393750586years later but yea.

probably one of the last times im blogging for the year..okay too early to judge but yea. resolutions to keep up to :)
anyhow caught the butterfly effect with qing and carol just now and i really like it! not only because my major eye candy's on screen but also cos although the plot is quite lame if you think of it, it actually thickens toward the middle and end and its not perplexing. it sorta comes to you what is happening mid way if youre lost and everything falls into place.
BESIDES! there's ashton kutcher to drool at ! what is there to lose? hahas i sound like some loser promoting the show but yea. he looks damn good (whats new) especially during some parts! hee. okay he looks like he's balding at a certain point, but i think it was just the hair parting la.
okay what am i doing?!
gotta go. my sister is pestering me to get my ass of the comp..ok what am i rambling about. i mean get my er fingers off the comp? yea yea.

love :)

stayed home cos of my eyes..just back from the doctor's (again) . yes can you believe i spent (or rather, my mum) 66 on my eyes. feeling damn spastic. kicking up a big fuss for contacts infection. actually its sore eyes+contacts infection so its real red. yins actually asked if my sight is in red! that funny girl. obviously not la. anyhow. its slightly better now. i can at least see my eye whites. went for some dinner thing last night with my relatives cos my aunt stroke lottery again yea money money for me too :D gonna make my posb card soon..if i manage to be available before 6pm when the bank closes hahas. got a 2days mc :) but i guess i'll be going school during recess of something cos there's some math thing thats supposed to be important. and i need to do quite well for my math since im on probation to maintain my 8subs thanks to last years lackadaisical attitude. but well. so far ive only failed emath thanks to that freak graph which i plotted wrongly for. 23marks gone cos i stupidly put 20 instead of 50..! shall not dwell on it..going for h.chi tuition later cos tomms i'll be having math with the kwoks.

ee! this freak just called and started twirling the cord and dont know doing what shite and breathing heavily into the phone.
eww
eww!

just went to see the doctor. thanks so much, nana :) for taking the time and trouble to go with me from amk to bishan in the blazing sun. turned out i was right! (HA to those who told me it was sore eyes or heaty eyes (??)) haha okay nothing to be happy about. the darn contacts. okay it was my fault..havent been washing my contacts since the beginning of the year every month. changing to daily contacts from now on. and i cant wear contacts for a month! how sad is that. gonna walk around half blind! and in school?! my hideous specs. oh well. im a vainpot la. the INEXPERIENCED doctor who used a PEN CAP to evert my eyes gave me eye drop solution (im praying tht he didnt give me the wrong kinda eye drop) and i shall resist the temptation to overdose my eyes with them. supposed to be rollerblading with the girls now :(( but obv i cant cos some dust or whatever might fly into my eye and worsen my condition. besides, my shades dont have degree so i'd be zooming around with my blurred vision, banging into trees and what not. can you believe i went for st johnie regardless of my condition. im sure nana and the rest think im crazy. watched the blue house cheerleaders before nana came. stupid eyes are affecting my studies! haha as in i get very distracted when the image of my bloody eyes flash across my mind and keep feeling the need to check it out in the mirror only to return depressed. besides i have to keep sleeping. grr.

why does rick dees sound so weird. is that him at all? i remember not long ago there was this substitude who totally SUCKED.

caught honey and dirty dancing 2 ! dancey shows. hahas. prefer honey tho. dirty dancing was hot but quite weird. hahas. the lil boy in honey was hell cute!! sheesh. esp when he was gonna have his haircut. and jessica alba's quite hot. its a feel good show :) and the soundtrack is fab. both movies are funny la.

everyone who bothered to ask how my eyes were, thanks alot. its gonna be okay. i hope.
ree! miss ya and your stupid purple bear. ok your BABY. take care and thanks for taking my shit (ramblings about my eyes etc. haha)
stepo and sq! march hols arriving :D
tings! as usual. you didnt call be before 6. but yea its okay. am sure your tum's alright! think youve been influenced by me. but yea go see your fam doctor if it doesnt subside after a few more days. continue farting -laughs- dont be discouraged about your SATs results la. just 43 points! and you only took a few mths to mug for it. plus all the spore stress. bet you can go harvard for your SATs 2 lo. haha.
yins, my dear angel. maybe you should check out your ear thing. in case you accidentally whack the tender part and regret! but im sure you wont go blind / deaf la. madness.

bounce, baby, out the door. i aint gonna take this no more. bounce baby out the door. get up and move. dont make me act a fool. just bounce.

found out i have GPC or some shit like that
which basically means there is some thingy in the unders of my eyelids cos im allergic to soft lenses but most prob cos i didnt take good care of my lenses and they have stuff in them cos ive been wearing soft lenses for almost 2years now and nothing like that has happened. okay im lazy. guess i should change to hard lens.
and what am i supposed to do with my poor eye in the mean time man. there's no treatment cos its not very severe but me being so pessimistic .. what if my eye rots away?? sheesh. what if tht bloody papillae doesnt go away!!? grr. what crap is this.

how do i even evert my eye to see the bloody papillae.

argh.

am obsessed with the papillae.

!! just saw the stupid thing. at the side of my underlids! no wonder its only that part thats red. argh fuck. wont you just go away.

my left eye is red. and im fucking sad. cos it was better just now but i wore my contacts again and the eye turned bloody (pun intended) red. and my mum, who's a saint, has deserted me to fend for my poor eye. someone help me please. argh

yay attained b3 for physics test! :D from an e8. and im pretty happy with it .. till the eye issue came along.

sigh!! very disturbed by my eye.

have recently picked up malay haha. actually i just know a few words so. haha.

forget it. am too troubled by my eye to blog. shall go consult my fellow er contact wearers.